14th November 2025

Nothing but a shadow, it seems,

Truth be told, I don't know if I can handle another year of being crushed under the boulder of my mental duress.

But enough about that, you don't come here to read that. Onto the good stuff that was sprinkled since last blog post.

The art commissions! They finally came in, I love them. I worked with gie again and I plan on working with him again in the distant future, as either a milestone for A Game of Cosmic Titans or a Volume coverart since I have one in mind already.

Here it is!

You can find him here for commissions or just to check out his other stuff.

The second one was by a artist named Adrian.

You can find him here.

I went to the movies, twice actually. The first time was last-minute, as I found out the worse way imaginable through a nimrod idiot who casually spoils what happens (I mean, spend any given amount of time on CSM threads on Twitter and you're bound to be spoiled anyway...)

I enjoyed it. I enjoyed it so much I almost wanted to go back to watch it again.

I had a respectful audience. A pasty white nerd with his buddies behind him mused to him:"I hope this theater isn't as bad as the last one...." and thankfully it was silence except for the occasional funny scene by Denji or whatever. But yeah, it was great. A great tragic love story. The second time I went to the movies I was going to see something else, but I almost wanted to see it again. I'm interested in buying the box 1 manga set but I'm torn between wanting to go hyper mode on saving especially after these two commissions, but the temptation is there.

I think the only complaint I have about the movie is the music, at times it was dissonant, but it was a solid 9/10 for me, maybe 9.5. Mappa really knocked it out of the ballpark.

So what was the second movie? Nuremberg. I forgot it came out on the 7th, so, I went to go see it. They blocked off part of the sidewalk under a bridge where I commute through so it's always frustrating I have to be careful going through it so I don't slip and die, that would just be so tragic wouldn't it?

It was just, decent. It has that hollywood quirk of something being foreshadowed in one scene, and in the immediate scene transition they tell the audience that thing that was just foreshadowed, well, happened. Like an example, one of the american judge guys was like, "we don't have the russians yet," a split second later in a scene transition: "we have the russians." It felt a little goofy but the pacing had to be moved along I guess. One of my favorite scenes was when they were explaining Rudolf Hess on his mission to England, and when his plane crashes he meets the old british people who proceed to whack him with their shovels. Pure comedy gold, there were a few chuckles in the theater. Later, Rudolf excitedly shouts: "CINEMA!" right after a scene transition, it was just kinda silly like that at times but overall the movie was, well, you know, a serious movie. I liked it.

Rami's(left guy if you're actor name blind like me) acting in this.... I've been gleaning reviews even as I write it and they seem divided. He's a little eccentric in this, I remember him from The Pacific and all I could think was amusing oh they got the weird guy from the Pacific to play this quirky army psyhtyrachist. Did the role fit him? Hard to say, when you're up against a star-studded cast and bigger names he seemed more carniciature is one way I can put it. But I feel he was casted fine for it.

I'm not too sure what else to say, maybe I should've gone to see Reze again. Nuremberg's message at the end was maybe just too preachy and planted on your nose: "They might not come in scary uniforms [...] but one half of america wants to control the other," something about how the germans in the 30s–40s' had a outstandingly different sway from the rest of the developed Western bloc, it's a interesting theory that Germans and Germany as a whole even as far back as the early medieval period simply grew up in a very unique enviroment(literally) where their trajectory to becoming a dominant central power is all too crystal clear in clear retrospect, there's whole schools of thought over this—drumming my brain for the term:" Sonderweg, the path from arcirstracy to democracy(and fascism), they deviated so far from the West(ern European) that it continues to just fascinate us how it happened.

But anyway, enough of that, I'm realizing how absurd this yapping is happening. Anyway Nuremberg wasn't exactly thought-provoking but for the average goer who isn't a lover of history it can be a interesting popcorn flick.

Anyway, on with the show.

Anime Fall 2025 Midway Pitstop

Starting it off with...

Chanto Suenai Kyuuketsuki-chan

She's literally just a modern day Umouto. I haven't seen Umouto myself (neither has my bf), but that's it, that's this show. Her gremlin form seems to be more literal? Actually it seems there's no real logic to her gremlin form, but it's still dastardly cute.

I think the interesting thing we find is there are other fantasy monster girls, but the cast are just normal people. Kinda funny, I guess it's to give her more promimence... I guess? It's slop for your soul, don't think too hard about it.

Debu to Love to Ayamachi to!

The Queen of Positive Polly vibes continues. So it wasn't a suicide, but a murder, dun dun dun. 

I ship them.

Kikaijikake no Marie

This show is just diabolical in every sense of the word, but also in a fun way. I'm enjoying it. My bf and I quip it's like they wanted to make this a hentai but couldn't, all the characters have peanuts for IQ and it provides for no shortage of goofy aaah Shenanigans.

I love Marie 2. She's so cute. My bf likes joking she looks like one of the dolls from Zatch Bell. She just reminds me of one of the meido bots from Melty Blood. I think that was likely a parody of the MB character. She should've been the main character, damn it.

Let's Play: Quest-darake no My Life

So... he got NTRd? And he went to go play vidya right after? Such a bizarre scene transition that happened there.

me when my bf has to leave for work(we have different workday schedules).

Spy x Family Season 3

Becky and Fiona goodness. No comment.

Towa no Yuugure

Sometimes, P.A. Works makes timeless classics. Other times, they just don't. How can a show with such stellar budget just flounder the story around? I can't wrap my head around it. The technology in this world is just so nonsensical at times. I read rumors early on the story plot was ai generated, but I'm hoping that isn't true and I haven't looked into the matter because I simply don't care enough about the topic to bother.

Also, WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOUR HEAAAAAAAAAD?

Goofy aaaa peanut head!

Also, lesbians. But I deleted the episode off my pooter already so you get no lesbians.

That wraps up what we're watching together.

One Punch Man S3

I'm not reading the webcomic nor the constantly retconed rebooting manga, I'm enjoying this as a anime only. I'm enjoying it. Sometimes you just want to gorge on stuffed fat burritos.

I think it can be eyecandy when it wants to. The story is just padded out utter nonsense for a parody series that should've just ended at season 1. But this is fine.

That's about it for my thoughts on airing anime.

We've finally started on Gundam ZZ! And original season 2 of Higurashi. And Hell Girl season 2. Wao!

I warned my bf going in this series is probably the most divided in gundam fandom because of the entire first half has such a sharp comedic and this originally aired directly a week after Z first ended, unfortuntely the version I had on hand didn't have the OP/ED included so he misses out on ANIME JA NAI. But I showed him those 2 OPs anyway since they're pretty cool.

ENTER.

He's actually been enjoying it(ZZ that is). I have, too. I first watched it in 2013 over like a 3 day period and I had it rated 7/10 on MAL. I vaguely remember not liking it nor the Transformers mecha (I warned him about this when we watched Super Mega's video of them in the hotel room and the guy ranting about his model car collection).

I think I mentioned it in a blog post before, but I'm watching the original Higurashi series for the first time with him and after we watched the first episode it was so bewildering because it was a sudden timeskip to when they're older and I'm wait what huh? For a little context, I did watch the Gou/Sou with my old buddy back then, we didn't know any better it was actually a sequel and not a remake despite the claims from the staff this wasn't a sequel (we were bamboolzed), so I'm vaguely more familiar with whats going on in the original series, vaguely. But it's still a cool watch nonetheless.

Hell Girl season 2 is also something we've put off for like, this entire year so getting back into that was interesting.

That nearly wraps things up, but I got ahold of some episodes for Yamato yo, Towa ni: Rebel 3199 and I'm going to binge through those by myself some day. I've just been kinda preoccupied.

A little bit of a game segment.

This Simpsons Fortnite update has been fun. I've also been bouncing between TF2 and EU3 MEIOU and nearly wrapping up my ERE campaign.

Fun stuff! But I'm already pooped out despite the fact this mod runs to about 1853. Normally, the game ends at 1821. It's also a crazy old game by today's standards (2010ish) and it crashes, alot. I have to try and use shortcut keys to navigate the country ledger thing because if I click around like a sperg it crashes on me. Oh well.

That's about it... for vidya.

Reading Odyssey at a slow pace, on the book where Telemachus meets with the Spartan kind and he's recounting his experiences when he got stuck somewhere. But still no Odyseey, the big man himself yet. Curious.

Alright... after a long lull in October of flatout just not writing for most of the month, I finally awoken and hammered out the rest of what is now essentially the closure of Act 1 of A Game of Cosmic Titans. I haven't a name for the Act yet, but if I ever commission that cover for it, it'd most defintely be A Swan's Cosmic Song. With Victoria lying on a bed of green flowers holding a golden bouquet. I think that'd be stellar.

And that just leaves me having to write Act 2... so, I want to say, I don't approve of using ai to write a story for you, but I haven't been shying away from giving all these clanker models my chapters strictly just for analysis and feedback. Most of them were lackluster, Gemini pro was the best of the lot, but it quickly loses steam once your pro freemium ends for the day. So, I started using Claude, and boy is it the most brutual and humane out of them all. I got the feedback I always wanted from something like Clanker Claude, but boy does it crush my spirit with the first several chapters. It hated how I "forgot" Boris after chapter 7, left Charlotte unresolved and Frank just disappears. But I'm liking its feedback so far. I gave it a older outline for Act 2 onwards and it tore it so shreds, I think it gave me like a C- for possible execution, or something, but it reassed the outline and the story when I clarified that ch19 was the end of act 1, of what will be essentially 3 acts of one book.

It still chastised me for just leaving Boris, Frank and Charlotte in the void and I defintely do need to go back and absolutely give the first 4 chapters a makeover. Like Gemini Pro, Claude hated, hated ch2-3 in particular because of inconsistencies with Luke. Similarly, it hated almost all my combat scenes claiming they were "overwritten", so... I will need to cannon ball in the trenches with micro managed line edits (by my own bony fingers with the skin superglued on, of course, no clankers here in the writing process).

But for now, I'm... trying to bring myself to address the outline, put it under the microscope and poke it a little because it was written around July–August before I had a concrete idea what I wanted to do with Frank, and omit some characters that had a convulated political thriller plotline thread. It's going to be a lot of work, but I'll get around to it eventually.

But good news is, A Game of Cosmic Titans is now 52k words strong and with one Act of 3 done. I couldn't be more happier. I just wish people would read it though. But unfortuntely, for now, my only audience is me, myself, and Clanker Claude.

I think that covers just about everything this blog post.

So long, space cowboy.